Two days ago, my friend showed me his Tarot cards. Even though I am not really a believer in cards predicting your future, I asked if he would do a reading for me. At first I asked about my future. Turns out I am going to end up very poor, but happy. That is something. I then asked about my writing career and basically I pulled all the wrong cards. That’s the end of that hope. Very demotivating.
Strangely enough, instead of making me feel bad about my future, it made me determined to change things. The past few weeks I have not been able to work on my novel, simply because of all the shit I had been dealing with. My ultimate goal is to become a successful author, and I can’t become one if I don’t keep writing. It’s as simple as that. So I decided to discard all that I had written until now because I was obviously stuck, and I started working on a synopsis to guide me through the story. I am planning to participate in NaNoWriMo, so I will be forced to write, even when I don’t feel like it or when I don’t have any inspiration.
The thing about most of us and the dreams we have is that we are mostly too afraid to make those dreams reality. We think that it is safer to just keep on dreaming about what could be, instead of risking the chance that we ruin our dreams. I believe that we can choose our own paths when it comes to our future. The only thing that is holding us back is fear. What will happen? What will others think? How will I be able to cope financially?
The people who have made their dreams reality in the past conquered that fear and I admire that. I strive to get over that fear myself. I would like to have a new beginning in which the future is an open book and it is up to me to write in it. I want to write my own story instead of letting other people decide the plot. That has happened for too long.
And maybe I will not succeed in making my dream come true. Maybe I will forever chase something that was not meant to be. But then I can say that at least I’ve tried and that is a great accomplishment already.
What are your dreams? What would you like to accomplish? Let me know in the comments.