I only just woke up and as usual, I looked at twitter to see if anything had happened. While I expected to see nothing interesting in particular, I read some tweets that worried me. I went over to Buzzfeed only to find out that Christina Grimmie, a singer and former contestant on The Voice, was fatally shot while she was signing autographs for her fans.
And I was wide awake right away.
As Twitter can’t deal with the train of thoughts I have going on right now, I just had to write it down here. I am shocked and sad that this was even possible. And I wasn’t familiar with Christina or her music. But this incident goes beyond all of that. This murder affects all of us who love live music, who love connecting with our favourite artists. This brutal killing affects everyone who can’t understand how someone is capable of murdering someone he doesn’t even know.
Psycho with a gun
The world is a fucked up place. We know that by now. And while we thought we were safe at concerts, it turns out, we’re not. But this wasn’t a terror attack. This was a guy who lives in a country where every psycho can get their hands on a gun, and felt like he had a right to shoot a young woman. An artist. A famous person. And it happens a lot that men feel like they have a right to shoot a woman for whatever sick reason.
Yet still, America has not woken up yet. Still they say: “BUT EVERYBODY HAS A RIGHT TO OWN A GUN! TO PROTECT THEMSELVES!” Oh really? Did Christina have a chance to protect herself? And heads up to you America, the rest of the world does perfectly fine without everyone walking around with a gun. Gun control is the secret. How many innocent lives have to be taken before you realise that this can’t go on any longer?
Music is a way for me and many people to escape reality. Concerts are a way to just forget your worries for two hours and dance. And if you get the chance to go out and meet your favourite artist, have them sign something and just acknowledging your existence, then that is something wonderful. Something you treasure. Christina was doing just that. She was connecting with her fans. She was making them happy with her music and a moment of her time. And then for her fans and her brother to see her get shot right in front of them. Her brother was brave enough to tackle the gunman to avoid others from getting hurt. But Christina’s life was already lost. One life too many.
Can’t wrap my head around this
And I guess this will chance everything. Concerts will not be the same safe place they have always been. Artists will feel reluctant to connect with their fans. After all, you never know who wants you dead. It’s as if something sacred was broken, the moment this happened. And I can’t wrap my head around it.
I know this post is all over the place, but I just have to get it out of my system. I guess the only thing left to say is that my thoughts are with her family and friends, even though my thoughts won’t bring her back. My thoughts are with her fans, and especially the fans who witnessed this, even though that won’t make a difference. I’m thinking about the monster who did this, and I can’t understand how someone can be so fucked up to do such a thing. I hope his soul will never find peace again.
Goodbye Christina. You were too young to go. You were too kind to go. I hope you’ll get to sing with all the other great artists we’ve lost so far.