I am not a singer. I have never sounded like Mariah Carey in her good days. But I love to sing. It makes me happy. I’ve never had ambitions to become a singer and I still don’t. But I love to perform in front of an audience even though it makes me incredibly nervous. Even though I know I will never be the best singer. I have fun. I do what I love.
Back when I was in high school, I was in a band. They only wanted to play metal music which is not really suitable for my voice. Anyway, one time it went wrong. The keyboard player played the song in the wrong tune which was too low for me. It did not sound good. I was bullied about that and also got kicked out of the band. I did not dare to go back on stage for years. I did not dare to sing in front of anybody.
In 2012, I got the chance to sing on stage with Mika. While I was not the best singer (by far) I really enjoyed it. I discovered what it was like to sing again. Right after that I decided to take vocal classes. I loved it. And I became a little better. I got the chance to sing a song on stage and I chose a Mika song. It did not go terribly well because I was too nervous, but I was happy that I dared to do it.
Yesterday I sang on stage again. I chose a Queen song, which was not easy to sing. I wanted to challenge myself. And even though I might not have been the best singer who was there, I am proud that I dared to do it. That despite some flaws it went well.
I do not share this because I think I did so amazing that everybody should hear it. I share this because I think that even when you are not the very best at something, you should be proud of doing it because it makes you happy. Because you challenged yourself. I challenged myself. This is the result. And I am proud of myself no matter what people say. Yay!